NO GODDAMNED GOOD ANYMORE, WHICH WAS A TERRIBLE BLOW FOR ONE WHOSE ADOLESCENT YEARS HAD BEEN THE SEXIEST POSSIBLE.
WHAT WAS WORSE, I COULD NEVER REALLY FUNCTION AS A WOMAN. I COULD NEVER HAVE CHILDREN, UNLESS I WERE LUCKY ENOUGH TO BE MARRIED AND ADOPT THEM.
CAUGHT
I WAS REALLY A NONENTITY IN THE TWILIGHT WORLD OF NEUTER-SEX AND KNEW WHO I HAD TO THANK FOR IT. I KNEW WHO HAD STARTED THE WHOLE BALL ROLLING.
MADEMOISELLE!
MADEMOISELLE OF THE STRICTEST POSSIBLE DISCIPLINE, ENFORCED BY HER CRUELLY EFFECTIVE RIDING CROP. MADEMOISELLE OF THE SEDUCTIVE HANDS, DRAINING MY MASCULINITY ALMOST DAILY, TRAINING ME EVERY MOVE BY A COMBINATION OF PLEASURE AND PAIN WHICH WAS DEVASTATING.
AND I BEGAN TO HATE THAT HAUGHTY FRENCH BITCH WITH ALL THE PENT-UP LUSTY HATE THAT I COULD RELEASE FROM MY PSYCHE.
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AND WITH THAT HATRED CAME A STRONG DESIRE FOR REVENGE FOR WHAT SHE HAD DONE TO ME BY FANNING THE FLAMES OF MY LATENT TRANSVESTISM AND BY CHANGING THAT INTO OVERT TRANSSEXUALISM.
THE JOKE WAS ON ME NOW. BUT WAS GOING TO HAVE MY REVENGE ON HER SOMEHOW.
BUT HOW? I THOUGHT ABOUT THIS FOR WEEKS, TRYING TO FIGURE JUST HOW FAR I DARED GO AND JUST HOW MUCH REVENGE I WAS FAIRLY ENTITLED TO.
FINALLY, I HIT UPON A VICIOUS PLAN IT WAS A -VICIOUS, BUT NOT MURDEROUS! SCHEME WHICH WOULD MAKE MADEMOISELLE'S PUNISHMENT FIT HER OFFENSE AGAINST ME. AND IT WOULD DEVASTATE HER PSYCHOLOGICALLY RATHER THAN PHYSICALLY.
IT WAS ALSO A DARING PLAN, FOR I AND ALONE COULD BE ITS PERPETRATOR, DEUS EX MACHINA, ITS PRIME MOVER!
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MY MOTHER, WHO WAS GETTING DOTTY IN HER OLD AGE ANYWAY, TURNED OVER OUR ENTIRE FORTUNE TO MY STEWARDSHIP ON MY TWENTY-FIRST BIRTHDAY. AS A RESULT, 46 -